For the past week or so I have been reflecting on so many things that have happened in the past 24 months. FB memories have been popping up and as I read thru my journey and read the encouragement that all of you have given me and I know I am truly beyond blessed. This wasn’t a journey I chose although I did choose how to tackle it. There have been many moments of How? Why? When? & No Way!! One thing I can tell you for certain is that Gerry has been with me every step of the way. Here’s why I know what I know.
April 6, 2019, was a normal Saturday morning. We had coffee, talked about our new dreams & goals as we had just come back from AZ where I was getting my RE Broker’s License and we had found a project or two that were really interesting to us.
We met our friends at Jacks for Brunch. Had several laughs! Sometimes bad humor has a way of bouncing back – I will forever hate the Answer B!!! Gerry had to run to the shop for a bit, ship off some parts, not knowing that would be his last trip — he left the lights on. My guess is he was late to FedEx and he was headed back that afternoon. I spent the afternoon with Lil Man. Gerry made his usual rounds that afternoon. Later I dragged him to Lincoln — He could hang out there until I was done at a bridal shower and then we could go grab supper somewhere. (No I didn’t know he had already been out there! LOL)
No surprise we made our way to the Pier — On the way there Brooke called Gerry’s phone by accident as she wanted to talk to me. She wanted to plan something for his upcoming birthday. He was “all hurt cuz she called him but wanted to talk to me…” LOL! He’s yelling into the phone “I love you Brooke!” even though I’m the one talking to Brooke! We are all laughing so hard we have tears running down our faces!
It was so much fun to run into everyone as several are Snowbirds and we all had been traveling quite a bit that winter. We stay for a bit and grab some food to go.
At home, we do our thing — hang at the kitchen island, play music, talk, laugh, & make plans. We even sent an email to the Bellamy Brothers to inquire about a summer party! We danced in the kitchen, had a spelling disagreement, and giggled some more!
It was what I would consider a perfect day! It was what our marriage had settled into. It was the “everyday” that we had created for ourselves. It was the friendship, companionship, & partnership of almost 27 years together. Yes, there were many hard times, times I didn’t think we would pull through.
If it wasn’t for this day 731 days ago I think these last 731 days would have been so much harder. We lived so much life so fully in our time together that I have no regrets. I miss him. I know that he has been with me every step of the way. I had signs, convos in dreams, and support from him. I know that we created a crazy beautiful life together and that he would want me to do the same now. We had talked about always living life. (Never did we think one of us would be in the situation I am now in.) I feel very blessed to know this and have the support from all those around us.
Thank you Gerry for a wonderful lifetime of memories, our beautiful strong-willed independent daughter with the best Lil Guy (ever!!!), and the family and friends along the way. You will not be forgotten but remembered with the laughs that you gave us along the way.
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